Is This How I Should Feel?

     It has been a while since I blogged last, a whole lot of baseball, school, and job stuff has been tying me down.  I heard some stuff about what will be going down in Haiti and I am not thrilled with what I heard.  Supposedly we are going to have to wear specific clothes every day and not wear jewelry and stuff.  The reasons given kind of made sense but I guess I just still feel uncomfortable with being told what to do.  It kind of bothers me that they put so much emphasis on what seem like formalities rather than what really matters.  The reasons they gave for telling us what to wear was that the kids that we will be around would get jealous or something like that.  It makes sense that the kids might see our shirts with something printed on it or our jewelry and see it as us taunting them but I highly doubt that all of them would see that.

     They also have a huge itinerary that looks pretty strict.  I know that they are mostly trying to keep us safe but I hate being told what to do.  It doesn't really look like we will have much of a free time down there which hacks me off because I really want to try to take in the culture and meet the real people and see their real faces.  I guess I won't really know how it will be until I get there but at the moment I am way less excited than I was a week ago.

      Maybe I am focusing on the wrong things but it still doesn't feel right to me.  I hope God does some works in me, but mostly I want to try to make a dent in their whole issue down there.  I also don't want to get lulled back in to my American comfort zone when I leave and I think that I will if I don't get an accurate bead on their real culture there. I will probably try to get away from the group for a little while, even if it is "against the rules".  I mean the worst thing that they could do to me is send me home, so I will probably do it like the last day or something.  At this point I just want to go there and do it, but I have a ways to go.

     I don't even have my passport yet, but it is on its way.  I guess all there is to say at this point is that I need to buckle up because I am just along for the ride now.