Hold On Tight

     About two weeks ago I was selected to be an "intern" for my church this summer.  To be quite honest, I am not really sure why it is called an internship, but obviously in the bigger picture, this doesn't matter at all.  A better description of what I will be doing would probably be "Senior Leader" because about 25 of us were selected to be leaders of the youth ministry at the church.  Part of what we will be doing is going to be a mission trip to Haiti, which is the main reason for starting this blog.  I wanted to document the whole experience, start to finish, the journey, destination, and ride back.

     Right now I am filling out my Passport application, and it suddenly got real.  I am leaving the country for the first time to go to a country that was in dire need of help before the earthquake hit, and even more so now, over a year after the fact.  I assume that when we go down there we will be helping to build houses, or clean up an area covered in debris or something like that.  We will be helping, and that is what is important but I don't just want to help.  I want the problem to be solved.  I don't just want to be a cog in a gigantic redundant machine, I want the whole problem down there to get fixed. This is typical of me though, and it is something I struggle with.  I have to remember that one never knows how much they affect things as a role player rather than a front man. 
   
     I don't want to play a bigger part for my own glory, don't think that for a second.  I am just usually frustrated with not doing enough.  I can't think like that though,  in this situation, and in most situations affecting me, I need to simply do everything I can, with what I have, and let God do the rest.

     So, this is where I am right now.  At this point I am just along for the ride until I know more or have a say in what we do down there.  And even then, I just want to do what is needed most.

Side note:
     I'm sure that if you are interested enough in my experiences to read this blog, you may be wondering why I decided to call the blog Follow Me Home. I am currently listening to a song by Thomas Cunningham with the same name.  It is about a guy and a girl who have a falling out but still wanna be together.  It has absolutely nothing to do with my experiences but I feel like it is still a great name for a blog.